The day after my birthday I can’t help but ponder about the past 12 months. What happened and what’s next.
The main stuff I have been working on has to do with awareness.
Last year I became more and more aware on how I try to alter the way I feel. Doing my daily routines showed me that I had a need to numb my emotions with red wine, taking the edge off after a stressful day. Today I have been sober for 223 days, and it helped me tremendously in becoming more aware of the other ways I avoid to feel what I feel.
I was looking for ways to hype myself up or tone done how I felt.
I notice others doing the same for going up there is sugar, caffeine, online shopping, medication, up and down jumping and screaming gurus, danger…. I don’t have a sweet tooth, and I don’t do caffeine nor medications. I did enjoy buying expensive sessions with coaches online that are creating a hype and get the adrenaline flowing. I do like the rush of adrenaline after a fast horse ride too.
I notice how I can be swept off my feet with a call just like Ulysses and his sirens.
I learned to go deeper into the call, not shutting down my senses but sharpening them.
What is the call all about?
What need do I think I have that needs to be fulfilled with something outside of me?
The answer is very simple: “not one”.
I am already interrelated to all that is. I can connect with it all without having to “do” anything. I can go as deep as I want, as deep as I allow myself to go. There is nothing outside of me.
This weekend I went deeply in letting myself go in binge watching some Spanish series on Netflix. The excuse was that it is good to keep up my language skills. Yeah… right. The ego is very insidious and has many tricks up its sleeve to keep us from realising the truth.
2017 is a year for me dedicated to awakening. Going deeper into awareness. Consciously looking where I am not showing up.
Playing with my needs, desires and emotions to see why I do what I do.
I am looking for the best ways to transcend instead of denying.
I am inviting you to a scheduled Zoom meeting.
Topic: Aura Healing and Sananda Spirit channeling
Time: Mar 17, 2017 7:00 AM Brisbane
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Love,
NN
